penat .

aku taw past is past n yg pnting skrang ..tapi aku ni tetap manusie biase n bear in mind aku pompuan .. salah ke aku klw ad cket doubt kt kau? bkan aku tlalu nak pertikaikan 'loyalty' kau tu tapii ..sndri mau igt sbb sape yg wt aku rase mcm ni? awal2 lagi aku da penah ckap BE HONEST ! jgn sesekali kau crik psal dgn aku lagikk dgn kau mnipu aku .. aku benci .. aku benci time kau mnipu .. dan org yg tlibat dgn pnipuan tu .. sape2 yg trase tu,yes kau! kau laa! tayah sebok2 pndang kri kanan.. kau yg aku benci sgt! da awal2 kau ckap dgn aku kau da xde ape2 dgn die,tp knape? kau gatal sgt col die lagikk? kau miang? pk2 laa sndri prasaan org laen ..oke? ehh aku ni bkan la saje nk crite hal rumah tangge dan crite dlm kaen aku kt org lua tpi,dah klw aku nk try slowtalk pon payah ..this is the onle medium yg ade la ..maaf klw ad sape2 yg tasuke dgn ape yg ak ckapkan ..atau ad sape2 yg trase hati,tapi i believe that in Malaysia, we have the right to voice out whatever that we think in need.. jadik,salah ke? x kan? yes ..thanks sbb mengiakan ape yg aku ckap :)

ehh ..ntahhlaa ..smpai bile ..aku da try utk jadik sepositive habes,sgale mcm bnde da aku wt utk pk positve psal kau.. tapi kau? tiap kali dgn aku,ade aje perkare pelik terjadi? WTF? WTH? kau igt aku ni ap? patung bodo yg slamenye diam dan xbckap ape2 kalaupun bnde tu da terang2 ad dpan mate dan ianye berlaku btul2 dpan mate aku dan ketika itu fon kau kt tgn aku? kau nk kasik alasan ape? shut up! ta payah explain ..

sayang ..yes,aku sayang kau ..tpi kau?ikhlas ke stiap kali kau ckap sayang? knape kau masih dgn aku klw kbhagiaan yg kau nak tu ade dgn org laen kt lua sane? bkan aku xkasik kau kwn dgn org laen ..yes be it pmpuan skali pun sbb aku jugak kt sni ad kwn lelaki ..tp,kwn ape yg cal kau smpai 6-7 kali? kwan ap yg col pkul 1-2 am? utk ape? utk ape? utk ape? yes ..ta payah explain ..

dan utk wanita2 berkenaan .. ehh nti nk kawen kan? jage suami maseng2 .. takut nti jadik n kene kt btg hidung sndri ..skian .. ape? aku jahat mulut? mmg ..so? kau nk doakan aku xbhgia? silekan ..Tuhan xmkbulkan doa yg xbaikk :)

ehh mcam2 sgt da aku simpan sndri . sbb sikap yg suke bdiam diri dan bia org pijak kpale smpai buat aku jadik mcm ni. terus2an diperlakukan sebegini rupe . aku diam xbermakne aku bisu . aku senyum xbermakne aku gembire. aku ketawa xbermakne aku suke .dan aku menangis bukan brmaksud xberdaya.

cume ..

MALAS .

MALAS ..

malas utk amek kesah dan begado atas perkare2 yg remeh dan ntah hape2 .. kepale otak aku da ckup srabut pk kan segale hal yg da jadik kt aku. stress .aku stress . tension . org xfham .org xkan penah fham .dan kau? manusie yg aku rase bole fham aku pon,xamek pusing pasal hal aku . ye,kau pun ade msalah kau sndri.tp,klw aku ad utk kau stiap kali masalah tu serabutkan kau; mane kau bile aku nk mtak kau dga aku menangis? mana kau bile aku mtak kau dgar aku mengadu? suda . sampai bile .

tahap sabar aku ade batasnye . aku bukan setabah aisyah, sekuat fatimah dan semulia siti khadijah. tak ..aku manusie biase yg bole hlang kesbarannye walau dlm usaha utk sntiase bsabar. i've had enaf. selagi aku bole utk menguatkan diri dan trus mengingatkan diri bahawe kesudahan yg baek adalah utk manusie yg besabar; aku akan trus menerus sebegini. tapi ..

bile sampai tahap kesabaran aku itu semakin rapuh

bile sampai tahap kesabaran aku itu hampir hilang

bile sampai tahap kesabaran aku itu kian pudar

maafkan aku klw tpakse melakukan itu.

aku da ckup mkan hati. sampai bile? sampai bile? sampai bile?

kau ubah aku sampai aku jadik begini.

kau jadikan aku wanita penyabar yg dulunya panas baran dan cpat hlang kewarasan akal fikiran dgn melakukan sesuatu tanpa bfikir dahulu .. terlalu terburu2 ..

thanks .

tapi ..

yg kau ajarkan itu bakal memakan diri kau .diri aku .

kerana ape?

kerana sikap kau sendri yg suke buat xtahu .dgn beranggapan aku xbisa melawan .

xpe. aku oke .selagi mulut terdaya berkata oke .

aku oke . walau hati menafikan ape yg mulut tuturkan.

aku oke.

dan sentiase begitu.

aku oke.

walau hingga mata terpejam.

aku oke.

yes .

aku oke .

utk kau,teruskan sikap kau yg bgitu

selagi aku ada dpan mata,kau xkan bljar mghargai aku .

-aku- 

 

mR.woobie ;)

hahaha memandangkan sekian lame la kan x hupdate ini belog hahaha jdik d cni sye mydiekan bberapa soklan yg anda juge bole copy ye hahaha :D


nyway ..been spending past 3 days gn mR.woobie ..hehe mann ..
dgn mak babah skali .. dsamping uncle n aunty die dan jugekk adek2 die hahaha :D
hurmm ..ges wut .. it went well :)
ehh suda2 hahaha
meh2 tgk ap di bwah nii ..
:)




1. What was the highlight of your week?

- get my 'things' done n jmpe mR.woobie :)



2. Whose car were you in last?
- babah


3. When is the next time you will kiss someone?

-MAYBE next week :p



4. What color shirt are you wearing?
-pink :p


5. How long is your hair?
- shoulder length,or mybe longer haha


6. Are you good looking?

-am not :)

7. Last movie you watched?
-ntahh ..faster i ges ..wit my roomies :)


8. Who were you with?
- rite now? k.yusra :)


9. Last thing you ate?
- nasi ayam sweet sour hehe


10. Last thing you drank?
- nes ice .. mann!! incredibly deliii ..


11. When was the last time you had your heart broken?
- emm .. last 2 years i ges ?


12. Who came over last?
- ehh ..hehe mR.woobie :)

13. Are you happy right now?
- YUP ;)


14. What did you say last?
- hahaha muat ke?

15. Where is your phone?
-rite in front of me ..


16. What color are your eyes?
- black :)


17. Are you left-handed?
-nope ..right handed ..


18. Spell your name without vowels:
- st mrh mhd mstff

19. Do you have any pets?
-NO! hahaha saye takut bnatang hahaha

20. Favorite Vacation?
- emm ..


21. What do you dislike currently?
- hurmm .. that particular PONDAN! salu mnyorok bakang pompuan :) sekian!


22. What are you listening to?
- sound of the ceiling fan haha


23. If you could have one thing right now what would it be?
-flying to kepong and kiss my mR.woobie! demmmm .. bole x? hahaha


24. What is your favorite scent?
- babah's and mR.woobie's <3


25. Who makes you happiest?
- mR.woobie and of kos mak babah plus 3 musketeers hahaha

26. What were you doing at midnight last night?
- watching tv with mR.woobie at his uncle's


27. When is your birthday?
- 6th september 1989


28. Who has the same phone as you?
- ntahh ..ttaw la plax haha


29. Last time you went swimming in a pool?
- haa bbrape thun yg lalu hahaha


30. Do you read your horoscope?
- not anymore ..


31. Where was the last place you bought something?
- watson selayang mall


32. How do you feel about your hair right now?
- i hate it hahaha


33. Do you bite your nails?
- sumtimess yess ..


34. Do you have any expensive jewelery?
- nope


35. Do you have any expensive jewelery?
- nope!!!


36. Myspace or facebook?
- fb :) deleted my ms accnt

37. How fast have you driven a car?
- hahaha 140 kmph jee ..


38. Have you ever smoked?
-errrr ..


39. What was or is your favorite subject in school?
-english


40. Do you have Verizon?
- come again?? hahahaha :p


41. What type of boy or girl do you usually fall for?
- bad boy .. hahaha mR.woobie will always be the one :)


42. Do you have any hidden talents?
- i can sing i can cook hahaha


43. Favorite Song?
- i live my life for you by firehouse


44. Do you like to sing at all?
- yup3 hehehe of kosss laa kann hahahaha


45. Dream Job?
- an officer at any gov dept hahahaha :D


46. Where does most of your family live?
- perak i ges


47. Are you an only child or do you have siblings?
- only daughter wit three craziest buddies ever hehe


48. Would you consider yourself to be spoiled?
- urmm ..sumtimes i ges ..hahaha


49. What was the first thing you thought when you woke up?
- what? can it b who? hahaha mR.woobie will b for who ..as for what is betape mlasnye ak nk ke clas mann!!!


50. Do you drink?
- yes .. nescafe hahaha


51. Know any other languages?
- french and arabic :)


52. Ever write a coded message?
- naaaahhh hahahaha :D


53. Have you ever been IN a wedding?
- u mean? da penah kawen ke? hahaha :D i take it as a yes la ea,since u that IN words is in capital letter hehe so, not yet :p


54. Do you have any children?
- yes hahaha


55. Did you take a nap today?
- nap? yes a 5 hours nap hahaha :D


56. Who has the same birthday as you?
- my ex-skulmate .. nur hana sabri


57. Ever met anyone famous before?
- alaa few singers and actors and actresses


58. Do you want to be famous one day?
- haha yes :)


59. Any Pet Peeves?
- come again?


60. Are you multitasking right now?
- yes .. i can sing while typing .. i can talking while sms-ing hahaha


61. Do you like Britany Spears?
- NOPE!


62. What is your least favorite chore?
- hahaha basuh baju!!! demm .. lipat baju tape hehe tp kdang mlas jgak .. da klw bju smpai berbakol2 .. hamekk kau!! mang sengal la pnggang ak nk lipat byk2 hahahaha :D


63. Last place you drove your car?
- shalam ..


64. Ever been out of the country?
- not yet ..soon :)


65. Where were you born?
- hospital besar ipoh,perak hehe


66. Could you handle being in the military?
- yes i ges ..alaa plkn pon cm army la jgak kan hehe


67. What is your average cell phone bill?
- haa nk kre ke? hahaha klw shari sploh hengget? sbulann? 30 hati kan soo kre sndri laa hahaha


68. Who are you thinking about right now?
-mR.woobie n org2 di umah T_T


69. When was the last time you laughed REALLY hard?
- just now hahaha tgk penguin mesia hahahaha


70. How many pairs of shoes do you own?
- 5 pairs :)


71. Are your toes always painted?
-nope ..


72. How many piercings do you have?
- 4 ..


73. What are you doing today?
- hurmm ..spending half of my day wit mR.woobie then ..here i am back in upm again heshh


74. Have you ever been gambling?
- no .


75. When is the last time you updated your page?
- ntahh .. last wik i ges??


76. Do you like rollercoasters?
- as if kopok rollercoaster? yess hahahaha


77. Have you ever been to disneyland or world?
- not yett ..


78. Do you have a favorite cartoon character?
- spongebob hehe


79. Last thing you cooked?
- hurmm ..ntahh .. ap eakk .. lupe da hahahaha


80. How's the weather?
- dingin


81. Do you e-mail?
- yup :) i doo .. hee


82. What's the stupidest thing you ever did with your cell phone?
- dlu la kann .. fon dlu hehe penah baling ke dinding hahaha too mad at mR.woobie hahaha bodo kann :p


83. Last time you were sick?
- sekarang .


84. What states have you lived in?
- perak and malacca


85. Do you wish you could move?
- no :) happy wit whre i live rite now :)


86. Do you take all the QuizPox.com quizzes?
- nooo..


87. What is your dream car?
- nothing in mind yet hahaha


88. Have you ever wanted someone you cant have?
- yes ..once ..dlu ..bfore i met mR.woobie


89. If you could be anywhere right now where would it be?
- rite beside mR.woobie


90. Are you happy with your life?
- yes ..as he lives here ..inside me :)


enche ..ilysm <3 need u by my side ..

ILYSM !!!! IMYSM!!!!! sob sob sob 

happiness will come and sit softly on your shoulder once you stop chasing it .

-mira mustaffa- 

 

plain

           one .. two .. three .. lalala .. hurmm .. 

Love is a very divine things that will happened to every living things in this world; especially us which is the love between the mankind. There are lots of stories that can be heard when it comes to love. So, here I will now reveal the story of me and my love one. It might not be special to you or even anyone else but it is precious to me. Okay, here is how it began.

I was born in Perak, I lived there for only 6 years before I had been transferred to Malacca to live with my grandparents. I spent most of my days and years in Malacca staying with them. Until I reached the age of twenty, my father who is a teacher has been asked to move to Perak and work there. That is the moment when my life has actually fated to turn this way. After two weeks I stayed in my grandmother’s house in Kg. Air Panas; a very small kampung in a very small area in Gerik, Perak; I met him. I know he is no superman, no Mr. Perfect and no Mr. Knows-Everything.  He is just an ordinary guy that I met and I fall in love with. He has nothing if I were to compare him with anyone else's love of the life. I know he always be the laughing stock of all my friends because he is just an ordinary guy with no educational background like theirs and he has no large amount of money to buy me things like theirs did and I know they were actually make a fool out of his work; he is just a guy that do business in ‘Pasar Malam’. But then there is something about him that makes him very special to me and he is my one of a kind type of boy. To be honest, at the first stage of our relationship, I actually expect nothing from him as I always think that I can get someone way better than him; but then after day by day and time passes by my love for him grow even deeper and stronger. I have started to ‘search’ for him if he is not texting or calling me. I will started be extra worried whenever he is doing his job because he can always find someone else too that can 24/7 be around him. We are one of the million couples who experienced the long distance relationship.

            The first time I met him, I thought he was younger than me because he is smaller than me as I am kind of plus-size. It was in his lot where he does his job when he intentionally followed me from behind just to get a chance to say hi to me and asked for my phone number. Surprisingly, I didn’t even bother because I am afraid that he might want to rob me or whatever that a guy can do towards a girl – not to say I am being prejudice because he came from ‘that’ place. Until at one point I really felt insecure when he kept following me no matter where I go, I stopped and ask him what did he wanted from me and he said he just wanted to know me and that’s it. He insisted to have my phone number and I gave him mine. From that moment we had been texting each other and call each other for almost every day until he said that he felt like we can make it to the next level. After all the thinking and asking for opinion process had been done, I called him and say yes. At that very moment I was hoping for him to really turn out and be somebody that I can respect and love with all my heart. I know how important the educational background of a guy is a very important subject to both my mum and my dad and I know very well how my mum really pay more attention on his family background and what he did for living and how  much he earn; but then I always believe that everything that we have in this world really came from Him. I know I am not being rationale here but then try to think about it even further, it is the fact that all of us should know. 

            What makes him very special to me is because he always teaches me things that I cannot get from the books, things that I cannot get from the class, things that cannot be browse from the internet solely. He teaches me things that he learned from his own life, his own hardship to survive in this world and how he manages to take care of his brothers. Though he is the third out of ten, still he is the one that have to do everything because his older brother always have that couldn’t care less attitude. That is the thing that I always adore because he is very responsible and I know he can be a good father to my children and he can be my guidance. There are few things that the two of us need to brush up on in order for us to make things work and be even happier in the future and we are moving towards that thing. I always asked my mother upon her opinion about him, being a mother she always said that if I am happy it means her happiness as well but I know deep down inside her she was expecting someone else. That is the reason I am trying hard and actually me and him, we are trying hard to prove her that it’s the other way round.

            So, no matter what others said about him, no matter what people might think about him, others perception about me being with him and many more; I will still love him until the end of time. This is no fairy tale, no Cinderella, no Snow White, no Rapunzel; this is my story with an ordinary boy living an ordinary life with a very extra ordinary love life. Might sound cliché and it is so not be in a real world but then this is my story and him. Feel free to be our judges and charge us if any of you find us guilty for having each other as our soul-mate. I shall plead on behalf of him and I know he will definitely do so on behalf of me. Do pray for us so that we can stay even stronger and longer.

a bit bite of me :)

oke .. survey ini telah saye amek dari belog seorang kakak yg saye adore penulesan nye yg sgt telus dan berani .. die mgkin kasar sdikit dlm bhase tpi yea that is reality oke .. ad ke org yg tapenah curse or even say any bad words in their whole entire life .. not even dlam hati?? ehh sile jwab ye :)

sesape yg nak bace belog die sile p ke reading stuffs ak kt sblah kanan belog ak ye ..

ehh nah la ak kasik link,snang click je trus :) 

have a tour in her blog,seriously best! hehe

kakak i wish i can meet u laa .. i adore you so much hehe

lupe2.,credit to fara razi krana telah knalkan belog ini pade saye ..

http://comatosewithbraindamage.blogspot.com 

... a bit of me from A - Z ... 

A - Age: still 21 hehe.

B - Band listening to right now: firehouse - i live my life for you .. man! the lyrics is extremely meaningful :) do try listen to it oke? hehe

C - Career: full-time student, daughter and sister .. ehh forgot bout that lil creature hahaha a part-time lover and full-time fren of his ;)

D - Drink or smoke: errrr .. drink? nahh ..

E - Easiest person/s to talk to: my meamea :)

F - Favorite song/s at the moment: speak now by taylor swift ;)

G - Gummy Bears or Gummy Worms: both pon tasuke .. tasuke .. tasuke .. haha

J - Junk foods you like: roller coaster yeahhh!!! 

L - Longest car ride ever: recently - from my hometown to upm .. mak aihhh! jammed pnye psal!!! smpai doblas jam!!

M - My favorite Sport/s: hahaha klaka la soklan neyh .. dgn riak takbur dan ujub nye ak jwab la kann .. i dun do sport .. ehh bukti kukuh ni haa .. with all the spare tyres here n there hahaha 

N - Number of relationships you've had:  hurmm .. consider the really serious one only la k .. 2 i guess. 

O - One wish you have: have all the power in the world. 

P - Phobias: huhh? nesca-phobic .. ehh hahaha ni adalah kjadian d mane tabole npak nescafe .. pantang ye,pantang jumpe! klw jumpe jdik cam sawan skjap haha

Q - Favorite Quote: -unknown-

R - Reason to smile: senyum itu sedekahh ;)

S - Song: the winner takes it all by abba . 

T - Time you woke up: tadi pagi : 8.15am sebaekk fara kejot haha sebab clas pkul 9am :) salu2 hehe malulahhh hahaha sedar pkul 9 lbeyh tp exactly bgun tu cm xsure laa .. haha mr.woobie cal bru bgn haha :D

 
U - Unknown fact about you: dahh name unknown fact, let it remain unknown :)

V - Vegetable/fruit you hate: okehh .. saye tasuke sawi!!! tp not to the extend yg hate la hehe

W - Worst habit: hahaha suke pgang bijik mate sndri hahaha :D saje nk rase bebola kecil itu :)

X - X-rays you've had: nak masuk upm laa .. sbb kne wt medical checkup kan so.. adlah xray hehe

Y - Yummy food/s: sume bende yg mak masak la kan, let it be sardin dan ikan kembung goreng.. uishh.. marvelous!!! ;)

Z - Zodiac sign: virgoan i am !! 

jadikk .. haha cukoplah itu kan? hehe. nyway tdi my long lost cousin and long lost besfren time childhood call haha nice catching up wit u guys tp soryyy our conversation asek kne kcaw gn mR.woobie ... heshh tabole la tgk orang snang cket hahaha :D

oke .. ni tadi ak amek kt fb babah ..ak tggal kan utk korang pk eak .. btul ke x ap yg die ckap ..urmm

"Kadang2 aku bersyukur kepada Illahi kerana hidup aku yang sederhana. Ianya membuat aku sedar siapa aku dan dimana kedudukan aku sisi Nya. Tapi...kadang2 org sederhana ini jadi bahan tohmahan dan bahan untuk org berada memperlekehkan kita.... "

-ak sedar tmpat ak, yes .. ak taw .. tenks nyway :)-

ilysm mR.woobie

imysm mR.woobie

"learn from your past mistakes and fixed yourself"

-mira mustaffa-  

.lOrd of the RinG :).

baekklaa .. bersempena dgn valentine's day 2 hari yg lalu

(macam la ak celebrate kann,xponn!!)

tbe2 mcm gatal nk post bnde yg berkaetan dgn bercinte2 couple2 kawen2 

tahapahape kann .. tapi,

ad ak kesah ko nak ckapp ap?? hahahaha :D

(kalaw mak ni sure ckap,da gtal da anak dare ak ..hahaha) 

oke .. ak sbnarnye nk ckap sal wedding, engangement and ap2 saje laahh

RING ;)

rings atau dlm bhase we called it as cincin actually ad byak jenis:

1. flat wedding bands

2. half-round rings

3. sleeve rings

- gamba cincin ini xdjumpai haha -

4. solitaire rings

5. eternity rings

6. trinity rings/ trilogy rings

trinity ring

 

trilogy ring

7. cluster rings

8. tension rings 

  

 

   

suda anda teliti jenis2 nye sume hehe

ak pon ttaw ap kejadahnye ak dgn rajen skali meletak sume gamba cincin2 d atas haha

tapi, mlalui pengamatan ak la kann thru my obseravtion omputeh kate hehe

most of them mang bbeza dri segi die pnye diamond la ..

shape die cm most of them lbeyh kurang je :)

tp if i were to choose la kann hehe

saye memilihhhh ... tengggggg .. hahahahaha

eternity ring :) 

itu adalah first choice la hehe

klw xponn mcm nakk yang ..

solitaire ring hehe

 haa .. sekian saje lahh itu je pon sbnarnye hahah tgu la next post klw cam rajen ak gtaw plax makne2 stiap ring tu k hehe :)

(padhal gntok :p)

till then,

 ilysm mR.wOobie :)

.. till death do us apart .. 

amin ..

nyway,takziah utk k.lyn atas pemergian arwah suaminye; abg kamal ..

semoga rohnya dicucuri rahmat .. 

Al-Fatihah.  

appreciate every single thing that you have in life

-mira mustaffa- 

.saye hidup untuk kamu.

hehe meh jom2 ..lyan sat lagu nii :) its my all time fave song :)

the lyric; very meaningful and well-said i shall say ..

it has been sang by firehouse ..

 

I'know you're everything to me and I could never see
The two of us apart
And you know I give myself to you and no matter what you do
I promise you my heart

I've built my world around you and I want you to know
I need you like I've never needed anyone before

Chorus:
I live my life for you
I want to be by your side in everything that you do
And if there's only one thing you can believe is true
I live my life for you

I dedicate my life to you, you know that I would die for you
But our love would last forever
And I will always be with you and there is nothing we can't do
As long as we're together

I just can't live without you and I want you to know
I need you like I've never needed anyone before

Chorus

I live my life for you

 

-firehouse- 

 

to mR.woobie ..

i will always love u .. n will always do :)

ilysm *_*

thanx for everything ;) 

ikut sedap mulOt hang!!

hehe .. lawakk laa ..hee yesterday, ak msuk clas shakespeare ak after break cny la of kos ..
ak msuk awal laa haha bajet sgtt :p
tbe2 .. bbrapa mnit slpas dr.abby start ajar ..
ak dga ad suare ckap ceni 

" ehh .. ad lagikk?? igtkan da bramboss da ! " 

ewah2 .. ak diam .. diam .. maken lame maken mlampau plax ea .. aritu ko pggil ak bitch la pe la kan? haha :D tenks sdap name tu .. bangge ak! :)

hurmm .. tape,mak kate ..

bia org wt kte jgn kte wt org :)

anyway ..hehe tdi wt grup utk bdak2 clas AG hehe rndu kt dorg plax da haha ylaa .. da bpe thun kot xjmpe .. dkat 5-6 thun jgakk laa .. pdhal maseng2 pon dok dkat2 je, tp time constraint kn hehe :) sume pon jdik hlngan ..

dlu2 kan time skola .. sume pon oke je haha tade plax ak ni dbnci rkan2ku .. ataupun skulmate yg anti ak ke .. i mean thap yg kjam2 laa ..hehe bajet ak ttaw laa .. ko wt mrepek2 sume tu .. smpai kne pulau?? OOooPPppsss ter-emo plax da haha :D (ehh ..mira jgn nti ad yg maki ko lagikk!)
well .. maseng2 .. ksik sdekah pahale kt ak masyehh!!! :)

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 - ilysm mR.woobie :) will always do .. - 

 -mira.mustaffa-